Quote: "Do not be afraid that joy will make the pain worse; it is needed like the air we breathe." -Goran Persson
***This post was intended to be upbeat but it took a turn for the religious/emotional.. readers beware. (Just kidding it's not that emotional it's just some thoughts I apparently needed to get out and didn't realize until I started typing)
The past couple weeks have been tough for me. I've been really missing a huge chunk of my life. I just have to keep reminding myself to BREATHE. I also have to remind myself to TRUST. There is a reason for this and I need to trust that God knows what is going on.
There is that quote that says "If you want to make God laugh tell him about your plans". Well I did just that and I think he literally laughed at me. I had plans, big plans, but unfortunately they were not the same plans God has for me.
So now I just have to wait and see what his plans for me are. I sure hope they are good plans and we are on the same page about them...ha. I guess looking back even when things seemed to be going wrong God had my back and there really was a reason for everything. SO my goal is to try to remember that and just breathe and trust him more. He really is one heck of a guy (or girl... who's to really know?).
The good part about this tough time is the reminder of how awesome my family and friends are. I may be sad and lonely but I know I'm really never alone. I don't know how people who aren't close to their families get through hard times- or good times really. My family is my rock. I love being around them and wouldn't change them for the entire world. I am truly blessed and thankful for them.
I just have to know that there is a reason for everything. My mom always tells me that anything that can bring you great joy can also bring you great pain. It's unfortuate but it's true. Right now something that brought me so much joy in the past is now bringing me so much pain. All I know is what I deserve and all I can do is comfort myself in the thought that HE has a plan for my life.
Here's to Breathing and Trusting...
Smell ya later peeps.